I Almost Called

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© 2026 Eric Knight Holbrook

 

Phone lights up, I turn away

Tell myself not tonight, not today

Your name circles in my head

Things I should have done or never said

I pace the room, count the floor

Every step just wants you more

Window cracked, city breathes

Neon flickers like memories

I say I’m steady, say I’m clear

But the night keeps pulling my mind back here

I hear your voice in passing cars

Like you’re closer than you are

Do I call or let it lie

Walk back to you or just walk by

Every reason says be still

Every feeling never will

I say I’m done, I say I’m free

Then your shadow talks to me

Yeah I pause, yeah I stall

Every night I almost call

Coffee cold, I'm so full of doubt

I rehearse then throw it out

Write your name, erase it slow

Like it never got to show

All these moments out of sync

Too much time alone to think

Friends say move on, let it go

Like it’s something I don’t know

But they don’t hear the quiet sound

When your memory comes around

Every laugh I fake too well

Every truth I never tell

Do I call or let it lie

Try one more time, or say goodbye

Every reason says be still

Every feeling never will

I say I’m done, I say I’m free

Then your shadow talks to me

Every night I almost call

Street signs blur, I miss my turn

Lessons learned I never learn

Every song feels like a clue

Like it’s pointing back to you

I swear I changed, I swear I grew

Still don’t know what I should do

Mirror talks, I don’t reply

Ask myself the hows and whys

Would you answer, would you care

Or would silence meet me there

That’s the risk I never take

That’s the rule I always break

One word could undo it all

Yet I lean back from the fall

Do I call and say goodbye

Or do I ask for one more try

Every reason says be still

Every feeling never will

I say I’m done, I say I’m free

Then your shadow talks to me

Yet I pause, now I stall

Every night I almost call

Do I call and say we’re through

Or do I call and plead with you

Every reason says be still

Every feeling never will

I say I’m done, I say I’m free

Then your shadow talks to me

Yet I pause, now I stall

Every night I almost call

Screen goes dark, darkness enshrouds

I tell myself I’m fine right now

Leave it hanging, say nothing at all

Another night, that I almost called

© 2026 Eric Knight Holbrook